So there may not be any wedding invitation cards printed yet, but the wedding is on the cards. Hence, unlike the usual girl specimen, I will not get paranoid and act all hysterical. Instead, I have decided to compeletely act indifferent to the whole preperation scene in order to avoid the stress and drama. but how many times can u actually do things that you want to, given an Indian household scenerio and a town full of people who pray day and night for my big day to arrive soon?? close to negative 100 number of times is the answer!!
So, why am I like this?
To begin with, I dunno the date, month or even the year so please dont think am the most unfortunate girl on the planet coz, I am not. I am not waiting night and day for my "baraat" to arrive at the door...I have better things to do, I have a job where my boss treats me like the most brightest human being in the world and I am respected for my opinions (even when I say things like- that shirt is ugly!! or why dont u just take a long leave?). Now I really dunno how many decades it will take before I know whats sposed to be even said in my hubbys house (given a situation) or whether my opinion is even required. Now you cant be excited or depressed about what may or may not happen in the future...hence the indifference for the time being.(to begin with, I dont even know their language so well)
>>>Yet, every now and then am advised to not act this way or that way and this will not work in the new house and why I should be less dramatic and more pleasant, less critical and more appreciating, laugh softly, talk less, etc etc... Am not that outrageous you know.
Secondly, I honestly suck at cooking!! (the truth needs to be told) I have tried and failed several times. I can cook, wihout burning the house... but the condition of the kitchen after am done is exactly the same as it was after tsunami hit the coast of Thailand. And the resultant food has something or the other that makes my dads stomach sick for two days, but he always praises and appreciates. On the other hand my mom refuses to put it in her mouth. There was once a 4 member panel discussion on- why my rotis never turn round and fully cooked, but what can I do?? if am sucha disappointment. I dunno if my mother in law is gonna be supportive or agitated. I tell myself that once I have the motivation to please people through cooking (or starvation) I will eventually learn, so no point fretting!!
>>>Yet, my mom constantly asks me to take a one month leave to learn to cook (can u beleive that??)..n my some aunty says, its utmost important that I learn to make samosas for the sake of family pride and honour (what will they say if they come to know u cant make samosa?... Omg!! the sky will fall). And even 12 yr old girls can make roti...whats wrong with you? (forgive me for am roti dyslexic :S)
Then there are those frequent reminders to finally start shopping for the things to wear before-during-after the wedding. you are being consulted on the colors-style-comfort-budget-shit&blah. As a person who does nothing but wandering the malls and browsing through every wedding picture ever uploaded on facebook, I dont think I need your guidance through this quest for finding a dress that I'd wear for few hours and protect till the rest of my life. And no I have not finalized on any theme for any of the functions (only if there was a theme called - "get over with it already!!"). If its my wedding and I myself ain't half bit worried abt what am gonna wear, then why is it a major world issue?? ill deal with it wen I have to. And its not coz I dont care, its just coz I dont want to buy that dress in advance and spoil it by getting all dressed up every time am depressed or extremely happy (am fully aware of my abnormalities).
>>> yet I have ppl who have volunteered to take me shopping, some even to shop on my behalf (like ill eva let that happen).FYI- My mothers having sleepless nights and this is one of the hundred reasons why. esp. since everybody who will be at the wedding (even the new borns and unborns!!) know what they ill wear except for me.shoot me!! for my top most worry at the momeent is how am I going to handle my dupatta on daily basis.
Then the bitter truth is that, am not living a rockstar lifestyle rite now. its pretty much like no where to go on the weekends apart from groccery shopping with mom n dad and ofcourse wandering the malls with my girl friends. You cant go to movies, beach, fine dining, or a party as all these things have turned into a "couple's thing" at my age, and hence why a long disctance relationship nightmare... So whteva that is that ill do later cant get any worse than this. And since it only gets better y bother obsessing about the life -shaadi ke baad?
>>yet there are some of you, who tell me that is this is the time to rock while am still a free bird and how lifes gonna be on the rocks later ....and this is it, if i dont live it up right now am so gonna regret later. And these very same people guide me through all the above mentioned topics, the very next minute. So they ask me to take it easy and relax and at the same time they want to be paranoid and hysterical... like really?? what exactly do u want me to do?? and how will that effect your life??
Its not even funny anymore!!! I keep telling "the fiance" that we should elope, he thinks am being funny (talk about communication gap). But tht seems like the most easiest get away from the whole wedding prep nightmare.
About the marital life, whatever tht ill happen is destined to happen whether for good or bad.. !! And,I cant change myself now to be some one later!!.
***!!Thts rite!! am a Bridezilla for all the wrong reasons***
