Note to self:
1. Need to Stop Apologizing:
In recent years I have found myself transitioning from a stubborn toddler, who would not apologize even if it comes to her life to a person who apologizes for even breathing too loud. I just need to stop doing that, I do not owe any one an apology for taking too long at the public toilet (coz I go in with three bladders- mine n twins), I will not apologize to the kids baby sitter if she says that my kids did not take a nap (coz not even God can make them), and bitch please!!! stop expecting an apology if I do not answer work calls after 4:30. And Dear husband, I will definitely have that particular tone of voice, if you wake me up at 1AM to ask me "where are the head phones??!!!" And I do say sorry in all these scenarios and more (much more pathetic ones) And I really need to stop doing this.
2. Need to dress up:
So I really need to pay more attention to the way I dress, especially if I plan to wake up and go to work each morning, (which pays in money that can buy things). I cannot look like the office maid when the receptionist is suiting up. Plus, am 30 if not now then when?? Also, my husband would be really pleasantly surprised if I took some efforts, last time he agreed to baby sit the babies on a Friday afternoon (thats the only time he is not working) when I said I would like to visit the parlor to trim those bushy eyebrows- I later apologized for being ten minutes late- slap to self!!
3. Need to stop stressing out over petty things like:
- No space in the cupboard
- broken shoe cabinet
- clock that is stuck at 6:45 from last 36 hrs
- Somebody Renew the dish tv and internet subscription!!! For gods sake
- My husbands love towards disorder and mess
In short, my entire room is falling apart
- Nobody caring for all these things except for me
4. Need to get rid of the clutter in my head:
If theirs a way of having lesser recollection power?? Like I dont need every specific details, like what date that was and what they were wearing and her mom/ uncle said this and the weather was like that and this is exactly how much I spent on that day!!!! so on n so forth.... till infinity. Similarly I dont need to know every hindi song by heart inside out!!! why does my brain have this useless talent to remember unwanted nonsensical things???
5. Need to stop going to the mall with kids:
As if life wasn't hard enough just managing them at home, I take them to the mall. (enough said)
6. Need to start keeping in touch:
I come from a family where at least 15 ppl come to see you off at the airport and much more so when you are going or coming back from a religious trip. So that's how close our friends and families are....(sometimes its suffocating but mostly it pays off on Eid). But after marriage, I feel a bit cut off from all this family drama (closeness) and I miss it a lot especially coz my in-laws side is not that way (they could actually feel at home on a deserted island). I miss my people and the madness and that's why I need to keep more in touch with who ever I have immediately available in the UAE region.
7. Need to stop feeling guilty for having a good time:
Like occasionally, I do get time off of kids and husband to spend it with friends, go for movies for grown ups (n without songs) or go shopping or eat at places where sophisticated ppl go (read: ppl without kids) and while at it, I can never return home feeling happy about it, I am always guilty for having a good time, its so bad, that I tend to be sad about it while am enjoying it (twisted, I know!!). Sometimes, I am the only one in the group who has brought their kids along!!! What can I say, am I allergic to relaxation ??
8. I need to make time for things I absolutely love:
like reading: I cant remember the last time I actually finished a book ( I had 5 uncompleted ones, that I force-gifted to a colleague coz books involve regularly dusting them)
Gardening: Why cant I be a farmer for a living?
Creating: I love designing dresses for my kids, or making some useful stuff from an old shoe box, or shampoo botl- ,and I love to cook!! its sets me free!! I am that kind of person you find on pinterest, but I need to do that more often.
LASTLY, I need to stick to the notes I make to self~ ~ ~
1. Need to Stop Apologizing:
In recent years I have found myself transitioning from a stubborn toddler, who would not apologize even if it comes to her life to a person who apologizes for even breathing too loud. I just need to stop doing that, I do not owe any one an apology for taking too long at the public toilet (coz I go in with three bladders- mine n twins), I will not apologize to the kids baby sitter if she says that my kids did not take a nap (coz not even God can make them), and bitch please!!! stop expecting an apology if I do not answer work calls after 4:30. And Dear husband, I will definitely have that particular tone of voice, if you wake me up at 1AM to ask me "where are the head phones??!!!" And I do say sorry in all these scenarios and more (much more pathetic ones) And I really need to stop doing this.
2. Need to dress up:
So I really need to pay more attention to the way I dress, especially if I plan to wake up and go to work each morning, (which pays in money that can buy things). I cannot look like the office maid when the receptionist is suiting up. Plus, am 30 if not now then when?? Also, my husband would be really pleasantly surprised if I took some efforts, last time he agreed to baby sit the babies on a Friday afternoon (thats the only time he is not working) when I said I would like to visit the parlor to trim those bushy eyebrows- I later apologized for being ten minutes late- slap to self!!
3. Need to stop stressing out over petty things like:
- No space in the cupboard
- broken shoe cabinet
- clock that is stuck at 6:45 from last 36 hrs
- Somebody Renew the dish tv and internet subscription!!! For gods sake
- My husbands love towards disorder and mess
In short, my entire room is falling apart
- Nobody caring for all these things except for me
4. Need to get rid of the clutter in my head:
If theirs a way of having lesser recollection power?? Like I dont need every specific details, like what date that was and what they were wearing and her mom/ uncle said this and the weather was like that and this is exactly how much I spent on that day!!!! so on n so forth.... till infinity. Similarly I dont need to know every hindi song by heart inside out!!! why does my brain have this useless talent to remember unwanted nonsensical things???
5. Need to stop going to the mall with kids:
As if life wasn't hard enough just managing them at home, I take them to the mall. (enough said)
6. Need to start keeping in touch:
I come from a family where at least 15 ppl come to see you off at the airport and much more so when you are going or coming back from a religious trip. So that's how close our friends and families are....(sometimes its suffocating but mostly it pays off on Eid). But after marriage, I feel a bit cut off from all this family drama (closeness) and I miss it a lot especially coz my in-laws side is not that way (they could actually feel at home on a deserted island). I miss my people and the madness and that's why I need to keep more in touch with who ever I have immediately available in the UAE region.
7. Need to stop feeling guilty for having a good time:
Like occasionally, I do get time off of kids and husband to spend it with friends, go for movies for grown ups (n without songs) or go shopping or eat at places where sophisticated ppl go (read: ppl without kids) and while at it, I can never return home feeling happy about it, I am always guilty for having a good time, its so bad, that I tend to be sad about it while am enjoying it (twisted, I know!!). Sometimes, I am the only one in the group who has brought their kids along!!! What can I say, am I allergic to relaxation ??
8. I need to make time for things I absolutely love:
like reading: I cant remember the last time I actually finished a book ( I had 5 uncompleted ones, that I force-gifted to a colleague coz books involve regularly dusting them)
Gardening: Why cant I be a farmer for a living?
Creating: I love designing dresses for my kids, or making some useful stuff from an old shoe box, or shampoo botl- ,and I love to cook!! its sets me free!! I am that kind of person you find on pinterest, but I need to do that more often.
LASTLY, I need to stick to the notes I make to self~ ~ ~
