We have a situation on our hands...

BREAKING NEWS: my wedding dates are fixed!! and I feel like the person who had finally reached the tip of Mt. Everest and right the next moment he was like- "Now, What Next?".

And following that, a whole new set of scenerios, worries and fears have started to pop in my head. I apply the Enterprise Risk Management Analysis to all the cases and applicable treatment options for each. Hell, I even made a process map using Microsoft Visio at work. (Do leave your email address in the comment box, if interested, so I can forward the scanned copy of the same).

So far the "love boat" had been sailing in still waters but now it has a sweet rhythem to it, we discuss what color to paint our room, what kind of bed, even the details about how many doors the cupboard should have (maximum is my answer) and if we should get matching night slippers (its highly important). We plan silly stuff and important things with same kind of seriousness. On other occassions something is said or done which sends the boat crashing into the iceberg and I want to grab my life jacket and jump off right away. And I find myself telling my BFF every weekend - SHIT!! I DONT WANNA GET MARRIED!!! One must admire her patience.

Then there r times when I am excited about the whole new life and how I will be no less than "tulsi" and "Parvati" when it comes to being the ideal housewife and life's gonna be so much more meaningful when you ill have someone to share it with and the whole new set of challenges in my learning curve. And then I wonder, a new place- with no family no friends. Ill have to start all over again. Who will I confide in?? who will I gossip with?? Who will tell me I look fab when I dont?? who will I remove all my frustration on?? who will eat all the disastrous receipes I try ?? who will I endlessly discuss shoes with?? who will I karaoke with?? Who will praise my pathetic violin skills?? Then I get tht choking lump in my throat and a red tinge on the tip of my nose and I wanna scream- SHIT !! I DONT WANNA GET MARRIED!!!

Help me, before I become an emotional mess with all these mixed emotions of Love, excitement, panic, anxiety, enthusiasm, fear and hope in one lil heart and mind. Really, We have a situation on our hands.