I am 25 and I had thaught I'd be a bit more confident, a bit less judgemental and a far less sceptic in life by now. but no!! I still haven't outgrown my silly fears and I still haven't gotten rid of few (many) senseless/annoying habits.
I really cant tell at this point, if ill evolve out of it or take it to my grave, may be people around me will get used to it or may be i'd be forced to change. Who knows?? I seem to suffer from a serious case of "QUART-LIFE CRISIS".
Here's why:
1. I STILL have a strange fear of stuffed animals and dolls - there's a strange way in which they stare with their beaded eyes like they know your secrets. That's why I never owned a single toy as a kid, and sadly I can still not cross a toy store without wanting to make dash for my life, but I dont !! I just avoid eye contact and walk fast. But I can chase and kill a lizard or rat, jsut letting u know.
2. I STILL have a fear of holding kids, I have a feeling that i'd drop them and permanently damage their head (nothing as such has happened as yet -just FYI). So when a kid is handed to me, I take all necessary safety precautions like sitting in the midl of the room on a fluffy cushioned surface or looking at them only when they are sleeping or are far. I really dont know where i'd live when I have my own kids, am thiking -a marshmellow house in the clouds....
3. I STILL buy things that I'd never ever use in my life, like a recent trench coat purchase and pink boots and have to mention that beaded bag (that broke the very next day) and matching orange bangles (what was I thinking??). I hope some sort of miraculous wisdom dawns on me if not that then atleast a bigger wardrobe or a secret dungeon to hide all these dumbass fashion fiascos of my life.
4. I STILL think that going to the bank is the most riskiest thing I can do with my life. What if there's a bank robbery when am there??...What if am taken hostage?? What if , for some reason my account balance shows zero and I can't do anything about it?? dont even get me started on internet banking and Indian banks.
5. I STILL try to hide my 12th grade exam results from people, when nobody really gives a damn and nobody has ever asked me about it since high school. The marks were pathetic and only my mom's prayers made me pass. But still, I'd like to throw it in the same dungeon with my hedious stuff.
6. I STILL fight over clothes with my sister.
7. I STILL stammer like a duck in Arctic Ocean when am nervous. ( I still talk in idioms that only I understand)
8. I STILL get paranoid when a man's walking behind me, mostly he's just doing his own thing, wanting me to get out of his way. But i have to get all hysterical and plan my "pepper spraying" or "yelling on top of my voice" moves. I live by the motto: Better be paranoid than sorry.
9. I STILL gesticulate while telling a story, sometimes with both my arms in the air (even if its on the phone...plz go ahead and picture that).
10. I STILL do my math using X as the unknown.
11. I STILL have this annoying habit of passing on random facts and trivia to people for no reason. Even if its far from the topic of discussion. It doesnt even make me look smarter anymore, given google and wikipedia. (Did you know that Mithun Chakraborthy's son's name is Mimoh Chakraborthy?)
12. I STILL loose all my sense of logical reasoning when am trying to prove a point.
You know I cant help it right??...coz I am suffering from "Quart-life crisis"!! But if I get killed by a man chasing me into a bank thats being robbed by a stuffed teddy bear, then the cops will track you down, am telling you!!
Inspite of all this, few of my recent acheivemtns include: having managed to find and retain a job, even progressed at it. I helped in planning and organizing both my siblings' "Big-fat-ass Bohra Wedding", and teaching economics to a 12th standard kid (& she passed at it). Had to mention all this so as to show am not totally a big pile of worthlessness.
I really cant tell at this point, if ill evolve out of it or take it to my grave, may be people around me will get used to it or may be i'd be forced to change. Who knows?? I seem to suffer from a serious case of "QUART-LIFE CRISIS".
Here's why:
1. I STILL have a strange fear of stuffed animals and dolls - there's a strange way in which they stare with their beaded eyes like they know your secrets. That's why I never owned a single toy as a kid, and sadly I can still not cross a toy store without wanting to make dash for my life, but I dont !! I just avoid eye contact and walk fast. But I can chase and kill a lizard or rat, jsut letting u know.
2. I STILL have a fear of holding kids, I have a feeling that i'd drop them and permanently damage their head (nothing as such has happened as yet -just FYI). So when a kid is handed to me, I take all necessary safety precautions like sitting in the midl of the room on a fluffy cushioned surface or looking at them only when they are sleeping or are far. I really dont know where i'd live when I have my own kids, am thiking -a marshmellow house in the clouds....
3. I STILL buy things that I'd never ever use in my life, like a recent trench coat purchase and pink boots and have to mention that beaded bag (that broke the very next day) and matching orange bangles (what was I thinking??). I hope some sort of miraculous wisdom dawns on me if not that then atleast a bigger wardrobe or a secret dungeon to hide all these dumbass fashion fiascos of my life.
4. I STILL think that going to the bank is the most riskiest thing I can do with my life. What if there's a bank robbery when am there??...What if am taken hostage?? What if , for some reason my account balance shows zero and I can't do anything about it?? dont even get me started on internet banking and Indian banks.
5. I STILL try to hide my 12th grade exam results from people, when nobody really gives a damn and nobody has ever asked me about it since high school. The marks were pathetic and only my mom's prayers made me pass. But still, I'd like to throw it in the same dungeon with my hedious stuff.
6. I STILL fight over clothes with my sister.
7. I STILL stammer like a duck in Arctic Ocean when am nervous. ( I still talk in idioms that only I understand)
8. I STILL get paranoid when a man's walking behind me, mostly he's just doing his own thing, wanting me to get out of his way. But i have to get all hysterical and plan my "pepper spraying" or "yelling on top of my voice" moves. I live by the motto: Better be paranoid than sorry.
9. I STILL gesticulate while telling a story, sometimes with both my arms in the air (even if its on the phone...plz go ahead and picture that).
10. I STILL do my math using X as the unknown.
11. I STILL have this annoying habit of passing on random facts and trivia to people for no reason. Even if its far from the topic of discussion. It doesnt even make me look smarter anymore, given google and wikipedia. (Did you know that Mithun Chakraborthy's son's name is Mimoh Chakraborthy?)
12. I STILL loose all my sense of logical reasoning when am trying to prove a point.
You know I cant help it right??...coz I am suffering from "Quart-life crisis"!! But if I get killed by a man chasing me into a bank thats being robbed by a stuffed teddy bear, then the cops will track you down, am telling you!!
Inspite of all this, few of my recent acheivemtns include: having managed to find and retain a job, even progressed at it. I helped in planning and organizing both my siblings' "Big-fat-ass Bohra Wedding", and teaching economics to a 12th standard kid (& she passed at it). Had to mention all this so as to show am not totally a big pile of worthlessness.
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